Hello my name is life, when I was young my mother left me n a house by myself for 3mos while she got high n a crack house, when I was 3 my grandmother took me to the doctor where they found out I had been raped, when I was 6 I had dreams of the boogie man coming in my room touching me but I learned that the boogie man wasn't a dreams but real, when I was 7 my .... beat me n my cousins up cause he wanted us to have sex, I was never called nothing but dumb bunny all my young life, I was a very shy n hurt kid, at age 9 I was giving to state kids homes, n didnt know y just knew my family didnt love me nomore, in the kids homes I got beat n when I told people I trusted they didnt believe me, at age 10 I still didnt understand this thing called love cause I thought love didnt hurt but I have been hurt by everyone I thought loved me, on thanksgiving 2001 my dad told me on the phone that he needed to see me and that he knew I was gone be the strong one out of his kids n to make sure I keep me n brothers close, I couldnt visit him cause I was in a group home for kids n he died december 2001 I blamed myself cause that was the only person who said they loved me I thought god took him away cause I was born to hurt forever n not be loved, my first baby died when I was in a kids home cause the stuff where cruel and mad cause I was a pretty young lady n jumped me, I got my arm broke too, n a home of cruel jealous people, when I got out I wantd to find my mother n when I did she said she never wanted me y am I calling, I decided when I got older since im not loveable I wanted to make my own family god bless me with 4 beautiful children, people judge me for having kids but if it wasn't for my kids I wouldnt be here cause im suicidal n they are the reason I live I dont have alot but I know god got my back, its seems as life goes on I realize that all these motherfuckers want to see me fail everything I got I got it on my own no help, my kids is different but for as me I showed myself how to do must things I been on my own since age 18 people get mad cause they think they know me but dont, so here is a little to add to your stories bout me, im 27 my name Sha only family I have is my kids im tired of this fucked up life, im tired of phony people, im tried of letting people talk while im quiet im tired of being nice living in a world so cruel, im mad cause I lost my father im hurt that my family love aint there and im angry cause I cant give my kids everything cause the world is about money, but with all that said im happy n blessed that god never gave up on me and makes me stronger each day I cant lose I wont lose devil get off me, im walking with gods army and no u will not win and turn me bitter cause of my past I will continue to love hard even when love aint there for me bye world